Three days ago I passed my last exam^[1]. I had been putting it off for almost two years, mostly out of fear of failure, partly because of the childish, unjustified disgust I felt for the subject and the way it was taught.
I passed it with a grade of 24^[2] which was exactly the minimum I needed to still graduate with top marks. I can't explain how relieved I've been feeling these days, and free.
The morning after the exam I woke up from a sleep so pure and undisturbed as I had not had in a very long time.

I actually remember the last time I slept so fine; it was in February 2019. That day I had just passed the last exam of my first semester at uni — noticing a pattern here.
I slept from 8pm to 8am. 12 hours, uninterrupted. I woke up feeling like I was reborn, zero worries and all the time in the world.
It was great and it was unique; I have not had such a profound sleep ever since. Even now that all exams are done I still have some anxiety caused by my thesis work.
But I'm content, this is definitely a novelty.

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1. I wrote a post on how I lied to my parents and friends, saying I had already taken the exam months ago. ↩︎

2. Out of 30, with 18 being the minimum to pass. Saying this in case you're not from... Italy? Europe? I don't know how common this grading system is, actually. ↩︎